Twisted Mind

 AUTHORS NOTE;

        Written in 2022. This is about a boy that seemed to only live in my head. Of course, he is real but it seems that it won't develop into the relationship that lives in my mind. I wanted it to be real so badly. I try to move on and stop thinking about it so that I can just be myself, but then my brain has to make these crazy dreams that reel me right back into a fictional reality. It's just so cruel. 



Twisted Mind


I saw you in my dreams last night

At first, I didn’t realize that it was a dream

It was all normal

I should have known when it felt too perfect


I was working at an event for a band

You were there


I saw you but threw myself into working

I was anxious about looking at you

Talking to you


In and out 

This way and that way

I ran around doing who knows what

I get done and sit in front of you

I started sweating


After that, you were in the back with me 

We talked and I was myself

Not nervous or anxious about how I might mess it up

That was my first sign


You stopped talking and looked me in my eyes

You leaned in 


But your friend walked in and interrupted the motion

I turned away and smiled

I was certain that you liked me then

That was my second sign


A flash and now we are outside somewhere

We talked for a little

Then he pushed towards me and kissed me

Long 


It felt like I could breathe again

And the world slowed down

It was perfect 

Like it was meant to be


Then I woke up 

And reality hit 


You were not there


Poems, Short Stories

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