If you knew

 Authors note: 

I wrote this Feb. 17 2023 about all the people in my life that were close to my heart, who decided that I wasn't worth their time. 




If you knew 


If you knew how hard it is

To realize you don’t care


If you knew how hard it is

To see you moving on


If you knew how hard it was 

To see you working in a store I like 


If you knew how hard it was 

To fake my happiness without you


If you knew how hard it was 

To mask the hurt and anger


If you knew how hard it is 

To talk to you like nothing happened 


If you knew how hard it is

To only have one friend left



If you knew how hard it is 

To smile and act like I’m great


If you knew how hard it is 

For me to trust you again 


If you knew how hard it is 

For me to trust anyone now


If you knew how much

 better I am without you


If you knew how much 

 Happier I am without you


If you knew how much

I’ve learned about myself 


If you knew how much 

More independent I am now


If you knew how much 

Stronger I am now



If you knew how much 

I don’t want you anymore 


If you knew 

Maybe you would text me back 


If you knew 

Maybe you would actually make time for me


If you knew

You would try


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